I have always been quite indecisive in regards to what career to pursue. I’m a creative person at heart, am at my happiest when I’m creating something from my imagination, and let’s be honest, there is a reason for the phrase “starving artist.” Creative jobs tend not to pay well, and it is often an artist passes away before their work is recognized monetarily.
It’s for that reason I struggled, and still do struggle, with what career path to follow, which has significantly impacted my educational pursuits. It rendered me indecisive and as of May of last year, I earned an Associate in Arts in General Studies because I couldn’t commit to any specific major. It took me 5 years to graduate (for more reasons than my indecisiveness, but it was a contributing factor). My heart pulled me one way, whereas my brain pulled me another, telling me to think of my future, of whether or not a degree, while I would be happy to pursue it, would give me the means to put food on the table.
I’m still indecisive, though I do have more direction these days. I’m not 100% sure if the path I am on will be worth it in the end but I am choosing to silence that voice to pursue a new degree that does interest me, that does fuel my creative passions. My dream is to be able to support myself while doing something I enjoy doing–“love” is a strong word; work is work–and through furthering my education, I think I’m getting closer and closer to that place in my life with each passing day.
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